If you must
first draft
drops clues to the riddle
then touch it
memoirs logical paradox
no ideal walk
to distract the mind
with freedom of nothingness
discourage that differs
If you must
be perversely upbeat
crawling out dysfuncional
magazines bankstatements newspapers
absorbed spreading manifesting
memory anxiety
sense the forgetfulness
indulge alcoholism
excitingly narcotic social selfishness
end as a nightmare